Messiah.
for God so loved the world, He gave His one and only begotten son..

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Y
xoxo.
03:31

Highest.
hope for the best but prepare for the worst for every second when there is hope and despair in, there is an opportunity waiting for you.



heyho! :D. i am talking to my bff Chanel(: on the phone and chatting with lil gf Wena(: on msn, happy only! :D. :D. :D. they are my happy pills. (L)! grins*. i miss them so much uh, haven't seen them in ages, :/. my toe is also one of the happy pills for today, she wrote me an email from Thailand! aww, so touched. sobs*. i am her "everyday" pill btw. :P.

i think i am starting to know what fear entails, it is anxiety of some sort that we are not born with but have learnt as we feel a myriad of emotions when encountered with different situations. it's like once bitten, twice shy. you don't play with fire after you get burnt by it. heh. for me, i dislike fear, i feel that it has hindered too many of dreams that could have had come true. without fear, we would just keep trying as we brace ourselves to whatever outcome that comes our way. i am just going to keep trying, the fear of uncertainty and disappointments shall not have the dominion over my hopes any longer. fear, take that up your a hole. smirks*. ;). i think i have a better grip of my emotions lately, i seem to be able to tolerate more than i can and operating beyond my emotional capacity. :). i likey like this me, maybe i shouldn't let my alter ego alyniemagenty act up too much. HAHA. you can't always get things your way, that i've learnt.

oh well, ending here readers, sweet dreams! :].

say hi to my new cammie..


baby Tinkerbelle(:, isn't she just pretty? mad chio uh. :D. :D. :D.

food with my awesome C(hristine) & C(hang)..

oyster omelette/ carrot cake from Heng/ BBQ stingray/ frolick with strawberries! :D. :D. :D.

saw this polyvore thingy on Eileen(:'s blog and started playing!

fun ttm! :D.

; misery is company cause i know that is real. i've learnt to love the pain because that's the only way i know how to feel - boys like girls.

Y
xoxo.
00:01

Fly.
try to fly even if you know you are going to fall because you might just take flight.

Y
xoxo.
17:32

Unlikely.
that's the thing with magic. you've got to know it's still here, all around us, or it just stays invisible for you.


hi! :D. umm, i don't have much to update you today, my mind is as blank as this space uh. :/.

i didn't go for work today because i woke up late, :X. oops. haha. it is a bad habit luh, i must wake up on time from now onwards. LOL. i will try at the very least, don't look at me like that. hmph. rolls* eyes. :P. i went for the dinner after work though and to bid goodbye to William(:. oh yeah, we didn't go to sentosa in the end last sunday because the bulk of us couldn't make it. it's been adjourned to next saturday, i think. heh.

the thought of not having Gossip Girl until march is killing me. grr. pulls* hair. i need my weekly dose of Chuck(: luh! :(. :(. :(. argh. damn CW, really.. but without them, i won't even have Gossip Girl uh. zzz.

okie dokie, i really have nothing to blog today uh, buhbye! :].

William(:'s goodbye speech..

& it's hilarious ttm yo. &&, i am not emo luh!!! LOL.

the boys.
happy anniversary! :).
William(:!
William(: and lao da Long(:.
Dion(: and William(:.
Clarissa(: and William(:.
Thomas(: and William(:.
Zac(: and William(:.
William(: and ZhiTao(:, funny only.
John(: macam like killing William(:.
proper shot,.
Clarissa(: and me.
use me, (Y). HAHA.
copy sticky! it sucks btw.
they wanted to stand behind me you see.
the toilet loitering gang. lOL.
my used to be favourite studying place.
random much.
Thomas(: like sayang-ing the Santa luh.
boys uh boys.
(L).
?!!! LOL.
the couple.
:).
xiao didi and me.
shot II.
we suddenly took a picture in the middle of the road.
HAHA!!!
doughnuts from donut factory.
licks*.
Dion(:, Clarissa(: and their doughnuts.
doughnuts as eyes.
finger licking good.
the couple feeding each other. LOL.
girls and doughnuts! :).
ex NJC students who didn't know each other until working here.
moustache! :B.

; we have a night to get away, so come on and fly with me as we make our great escape - jay sean.

Y
xoxo.
20:12

Uncanny.
any resemblance with you would be something i'd hate about myself, more of me and less of you.

roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! :D. photos above taken before me leaving for A1 warriors' dinner. anyhow, me is very bored yo, :/. i have absolutely nothing on my to do list! :S. i think i should start getting started with my plans of getting a driving license/ learning Japanese/ taking SATs. talk is cheap uh. heh.

i didn't have monday blues today, despite having a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. either that or because we are extremely busy on monday since all the work load starts coming in. teehee. tmr will be William(:'s last day, :(. so sudden luh but i am glad he found a better job. :). let's see who will move to the seat he vacates beside me. hopefully, all the colleagues from my batch will go for the last dinner. oh yeah, Thomas(: and JianLong(: keep disturbing me about Dion(:, seriously -.-. it started because i commented on his hair, xiao di di la deh. LOL. anyway just as General Andrew(: was saying that if John(: and i ever get a U for our H2(s) yesterday, it'll be due to our illegible handwriting and today, guess what? we are recognised as the people with the most illegible handwriting in the office. zzz. i just am too lazy to write okay while John(:'s handwriting is just ugly. :X.

results are predicted to be released on a friday either the last week of feb or the first week of march, are you excited? my heart pounds faster each time i think of it, really. i can't wait to have an aim in life, again. :).

two of the Body Parts are going overseas, toe to Thailand and left hand to Cameron Highlands. the toe will be missed but not the left hand. HAHA. just kidding. "hanla, hanla, miss you la nana". <-- sial la, it rhymes. you two better come back in one piece or you'll know the power of the brain. :P.

i've decided not to celebrate Christmas this year cause i have no one to celebrate with and no one has asked me out, :(. i shall snuggle up with my thoughts/ army of pillows. i am miss lonely you see, T.T.

okay, enough of my nonsensical non flowing blabber, see you! :].

my source of joy! :D. (L)!
marvelous cream in the making.

Y
xoxo.
19:06

Succinct.
Our acts our angels are, or good or ill, Our fatal shadows that walk by us still.


heyya'll! :D. waves* frantically. i miss the virtual world like siao, :/. i haven't been on since my cousins arrived, i don't know how i endured for the past few days. faints*.

weekend was well spent with cousins, :D. we checked into capella hotel for a night too, though i thought it was a waste of money since only three of us stayed over plus i missed my bed more than i enjoyed the hotel stay. zzz. i ate a lot luh, think i gained mad lot of weight but only gained one kgee! teehee. :P.

A1 warriors' dinner reinforced my hypothesis that i really love school, seriously. i finally had intellectual conversation after a month without it! haha. today happened to be exactly one month our A's ended, hell yeah babeh. :). i can't wait to get my results so i can finally have an aim, i still have 8 more months of nothingness yo unlike boys who have ns. envies*.

anyhow, i got into the MOE internship and i've decided to accept it because of the enticing pay and it will put on some clothes on my naked SGC. my SGC is crazily empty, no joke. i am one of the problematic kid even, late coming plus attire issues. LOL. i don't know i got chosen, must be my rebellious speech on how a teacher should never place school politics over student's welfare. :X. oops.

oh well, enough said, ending it here. stay tuned. :].


avatar 3D was so so for me unlike all the various reviews that were highly positive. indeed, the graphics were marvellous but the story got draggy along the way don't you think? the animation is definitely worth the money though, it's as if i was in the movie itself though at certain points movie, the 3D glasses was irritating me more than it was pleasing me. watch it if you are a fanatic of animations! ;).

hi ah Chen(:, i can't see your eyes!
the other side of the table.
niecey uber happy with her shaker fries.
cousins.
macam they are boarding the cruise.
playing at the arcade.
the girls' team.
time crisis.
Windy(: was very intrigued.
twists*.
driving.
Nicole(: and i.
Bryan(:(who calls himself David(: for no reason) and i.
the cousins, my niece took the photo, pro or what.
eating cream puffs from beard papa's.
B&J.
cousins again.
niecey looking pissed because i neglected her. uh oh.
still looking good though grumpy.
mad love this photo!
Nicole(:.
Bryan(:.
you gave away our favourite disney characters or rather, you found a new minnie. sigh.
so tiny compared to the tree.
macam a family portrait.
think my photgraphy skills are damn good. HAHA.
stupid guy at the side spoilt the picture.
the girls.
the star at the top!
the whole Christmas tree.
sister and cousin.
Christmas tree at suntec.
another view.
us and the tree.
in the toilet before the movie.
her blue extension.
nice right?! haha.
like a cool only.
:).
waiting to check in.
cousins! :D.
Nicole(: and the map.
the exterior view of the hotel.
our room.
the hotel card.
the couch.
the main control system.
the two double beds.
the balcony.
where we took our bubble bath! :D.
shower area.
the make up room.
toilet.
i like their logo yo.
complimentary drinks.
coffee in the making.
the pantry corner.
the best function of the room or we'd have died of boredom.
mirror mirror on the wall.
vanity.
say cheese.
Nicole(: lazing on the couch.
niecey treating the tub like a swimming pool.
me!
happy only!
putting on our bathing robes.
i look like i have only one arm. LOL.
at the swimming pool.
they dived in.
just keep swimming.
the other pool.

view of the hotel from the pool.
i joined them.
the hot pool.
random.
bubble bathing.
my stinky feet.
after the bubble bath.
my turn to laze on the couch.
wanted to write a letter to myself at home but was too lazy. HAHA.
lazing on the bed.
cam whoring.
hiiesxz.
on the way out to vivo for dinner.
me likes the lights.
:D.
Nicole(: and i.
posing with the lights.
Bryan(: and Nicole(:.
Bryan(: and i.
in the monorail.
in the monrail still.
twist and dunk!
Christmas stardust meal.
our dining corner.
with shilin xxl chicken! drools*.
two of us.
munches*.
nom nom nom.
hash brown the shape of a star! (*).
star! :D.
only ate the toppings cause i was too full uh.
camwhoring again.
my eyebags big only!
took out my extension because the colour has faded. :(.
random photos from my phone.
my photo wall.
shabu shabu.
chicken wings and satays!
Christmas tree at City Square.
tidbits set I.
tidbits set II.

; i've gotta go my own way, i've gotta leave all these behind - vanessa hudgens.

Y
xoxo.
18:00

Minimal.
Sometimes you have to put walls around you, not to keep people out but.. to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with you.


when you do not have this perfect day, the days are like as though you are in this pitch black darkness. this darkness that when you reach out, you feel nothing there and even when you pull your hand back, you can't even see your own hand. i have been living without this perfect day for a long while now. i go to bed without having a dream that i want to attain and i wake up, not knowing what am i going to do for the rest of the day. haven't you heard, i'd fall asleep only in hopes of dreaming? this darkness scares me, it's like you are in free fall. you are falling and falling but this seems like an endless pit. why do you think we live when we all live to die, why?

okay, ignore that. it was just one of the mindless thoughts i get when i lie lifelessly in bed using my last ounce of strength trying to get to sleep. heh. i think going to college has really taught me how to live life with a purpose which was A's. even though A's was painful, at the very least, i had an end in mind. now, i just feel like i am living for nothing, :/. it feels horrible to be aimless, to not know what you are going to do next. the liberation wasn't so sweet after all, i'd prefer to be bound to something, anything. sigh. :(.

aight, i am going to surround myself in my army of pillows and drown myself in my mindless thoughts. till then, have a goodnight! :].

; should have saw it long long time ago, should have started running - daughtry.

Y
xoxo.
19:20

Sunshine.
you change your life by changing your heart because that is when you really get your heart back.



hi all! :D. me is very bored, i have been very bored lately which kinda explain the recent spam of webcam photos uh, :/. anyway, note to self: i n.e.e.d to start eating proper meals and having regular sleep pattern uh, must! as much as i like that my weight is going down down down down, my shorts/ jeans/ skirts get looser by the day too so yeah. heh.

paradoxically, unlike my word of the day being sunshine, it's raining today. :). i like the rain, the breeze that creeps up my skin and the shudder that the coldness gives me. it is freezing in here but i am snuggling up in my army of pillows yo. sometimes, it is the negativity that makes you feel alive. for me, pain keeps me sane. it reminds me that i am not totally devoid of emotions, it ignites my sanity and drive away all those moments of "i don't know what to feel". heh. i am starting to like the pain baby, you just have to make do with whatever you are given, you get my drift don't you?

work was uber siansxz today because there were lesser calls and the day started off bad because of this irritating person who couldn't understand what i was saying, she didn't even try to understand luh. :(. lunch was with Dion(: and QingSheng(:. Dion(: damn funny please because he took two spoons and was happily eating for some time before realising he was actually using two spoons. HAHA. he said i look like i have just woken up perpetually and that my jacket makes me look like i am MJ in thriller. sial la, a 16 year old boy knows MJ siol. lol. we are having a colleague outing to sentosa this sunday, cool or what. my colleagues is the only reason why i stay on in this boring job yo. :).

i ♥ my new blog song btw, whatcha say - jason derulo. teehee. i have been listening to a lot of r&b lately, must be the after effect of clubbing uh.

okay, ending this here. let's start off with today, gone with the wind to eat my shabu shabu. buhbye! :].

Y
xoxo.
18:57

Galore.
I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you to say that there was no one else that you could ever be with and that you wanted to be with me.



yo what's up earthlings? hiiesxz. :D. yippey yippey yay yay! i am in a good mood today, i don't know why. heh. however, when such rare random happiness peaks, it will be followed by major emoness. zzz. neh mind, shall just be happy for now. :).

i was late for work mansxz, again. yes, half an hour late. :X. haha. yet, i clocked the most calls and sent out the most letters. it was mad busy in the office today, the phone kept ringing for everyone. it's like i hang up on one, the next one comes right up. i likey like like it though, it keeps me occupied instead of being bored as usual but my effort to bring a book was wasted. brunch was sushi and yami yoghurt(L), thanks to ZhiTao(: and Thomas(: being so nice following me to Novena Square. teehee. rushed home after work to watch hi my sweetheart and momo love which both were salty(salty means beautiful, learnt it from jennifer's body). i spammed more random movies today too, :P.

anyhow, my two distant(but i am ironically close to) cousins are coming to singapore this weekend. yay! :D.

okie dokie you cute lil earthlings, i want to go catch the gem of life on cable already. toodles. :].

the shows i watched today..

saw VI: i finally watched it since it was aired when i had my A's. as awesome as always! <-- alliteration babeh. HAHA. how can anyone not enjoy saw? it's so grueawesome. the plot is so smart, i think the script writers are like exuding this morbid brilliance and guess what? saw VII is coming up even though Jigsaw(:(John(:) died in saw III. i can't wait. i am sadistic like that. evil laughter*. hiak hiak hiak. :P.

Y
xoxo.
20:22

Agony.
Love has no uttermost, as the stars have no number and the sea no rest.

Y
xoxo.
01:42

Shame.
you were the reason for all my joy, but now, you are the reason for all my pain.


my first ever zouk out babeh. :D. it is pretty disappointing, really. :(. it's overrated and by saying it's only pretty disappointing is an understatement. heh. i think it's my worst clubbing experience, so far. the music was sucky and the alcoholic drinks were all very weak(that i didn't even get red after the shots of vodka), zzz. though, at one point, the music at wavehouse was okay. the only thing worth the sixty bucks was that there was a frolick(happy only!) booth, i got to dance, fireworks, free cotton candy and sticky candy. HAHA. not very worth it actually, i'd rather use the money and go for another two clubbing sessions at other clubs. oh well. despite all that, i still didn't regret going. after all, this is the clubbing event of the year. i accidentally deleted all the photos from yesterday when i was transferring from the memory card, hence, too bad for you and me. :/.

sore throat, aching legs and insomnia currently. T.T. i want to sleep but i just can't seem to fall asleep for no apparent reason. sigh. :(. there's work tmr which means i can't sleep tmr already. major sad shitsxz. i think i am gonna spend the whole of next week recuperating at home, i have been going out so often since hols started that i feel homesick. i miss my army of pillows so much, i wish i can just laze in it all day. hyperbolic much but still, i need to stay home more often! i have not eaten home cooked food too okay(though i am craving for crystal jade's abalone porridge currently). :/.

boring post with the capital B. bye! :].

; you can put the blame, said you could put the blame on me - akon.

Y
xoxo.
14:15